Now what did I have to go and flap my gums for? Last week, I whined about how I hadn't heard from my agent, how she'd apparently forgotten all about me as I wore out my Check Inbox button, how my life was one big waiting period after another. And then I clicked on my inbox one afternoon and there was her long-awaited review of my manuscript (okay, really, she didn't take that long, but in my little world, it felt like an entire year).
Poof! Now all my free time has vanished. I'm already missing those leisurely days of taking the kids for walks and not feeling like every minute has to be justified. (I'm just never happy, am I?) Now those cookie-making, book-reading days are gone in an instant, replaced by the pressure of revisions. And that age-old adage, "Be careful what you wish for," keeps floating through my head.
Because now I'm once more too busy. At first read-through, in fact, I decided her recommended changes weren't even possible. Add more depth to the detective? Create more sexual tension between her and her love interest? Everything seemed too hard.
Then I ate dinner to level out my blood sugar and reread the comments by myself, without my five year old standing by my elbow and yacking in my ear the whole time. And I realized that while the changes might take some time, they were perfectly doable. I just need a game plan. Finding the time to write will be a bit tricky with the holidays here and my oldest out of school all this week and two more weeks in December, but I'll muddle through once I establish a timeline.
And escape the zone of laziness. Amazing how a few weeks of barely writing can destroy that sense of urgency, that hunger to jot down my thoughts. So I'm taking baby steps. Today, I'll dig out my hardcopy of the book so I can use it for reference when planning my changes, then I'll briefly work on some character development. Notice how I said, "briefly?" I'm setting the bar at ankle height so that even minimal effort on my part will result in exceeding those expectations. Each day, I'll add more to my to-do list until I'm once more productive and I can finish all the changes. Then I'll send the revised version to my agent and get back to those important things in life. Like watching Cash Cab.